I am coming back from my summer holidays. My brain is a bit groggy from being so lazy with the break, the hot sun and the jetlag.
Although I start to feel the energies around me and that transpires in me… As soon as I entered my home I felt foreign to many things that were usual objects, hanging there for a while.
I felt like I had moved to another energy and that I left months ago. The energies in my home were a bit old - although I was so happy to find my haven again.
My life is so organised around my peace, my sacred time with my inner life, that holidays can sometimes be a bit of a torture for me because I lose this thread of the inner life. I am immersed in a family gatherings, in new dynamics, which shuffle the dynamics of my usual routine. I love being with my family, my children, it is invaluable to share quality time with them, and to spend time without counting. But it un-centres me, changing my habits. And I get shuffled too. It feels awkward. Being a mother sometimes does this. You give your time to the family and your routine is shaken up.
So I came back and I felt so much going on. Outside and inside. I needed to rethink my interior, my home, my haven.
But also I felt I need to rethink who I was, inside and outside.
What are these energies telling inside.
They feel like my house.
I surely need to spend time to re-evaluate all my choices and activities in my life.
Clearing time.
There is another aspect to the holidays.
It is a time when you lose your habits and boundaries. Sometimes it can create panic or boredom to some. Actually it is so healthy to lose your usual vision of your life, of your routine, of your identity.
You usually don’t exist during this vacation time because of “who you are” in the society, but rather who you are truly.
So many definitions are put aside for a long moment. And it is the best way to let your rigid energies and ideas start to tremble, start to fade and then leave some space for some new ideas to come to you. Yes you will come back with a fuzzy mind, and different mindset, and surely different desires.
You have let some space for transformation just by pausing your life.
It is a passive shift, but it always occurs a shift.
That is so precious.
Forgetting the routine and letting the new energies step into your whole being.
Holidays are prone to transformation.